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Location: Fayetteville, NC | Thanks again for the continued support, Music Mike called me and we talked for a while. made me feel better for the time being. It was really very nice of him to call and offer me counsel.
I'll post more as i'm able.
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Location: Brisbane Australia | Everyone deserves a second chance, I'm sure you will get yours.
A man who cannot shed a tear has no heart.
I hope you get to see your kids at Christmas.
All the best Mate
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Location: Fayetteville, NC | I got to spend 4 Hours with my kids yesterday. It was a very nice visit. i got to explin to them how very much i love them and that Daddy Made a mistake, but that i still love them very much and i love their mommy. I told them how much i miss them and that For the time being I will be with them for 4 hours every Sunday.
We went to The Store for them to each pick out a toy for Christmas. I got their Mom a gift card.
I 'm not really supposed to, but hey, It's Christmas.
After the store visit, Which took a while due to Rabid Christmas shoppers. we went To Mcdonalds, i bought them each a happy meal and we went into the playplace and played together.
I wish i had spent more time through the years playing with them and loving them, beinga better Dad.
It killed me inside to watch them leave when i dropped them offf to their mother.
It still tears me up inside that i'm not with them tonight for Christmas Eve. or Getting to see the look of excitement and happiness on their Faces Christmas morning when they see what santa Left.
Guys please keep me in your prayers. Sometimes it seems like it takes all i can do to just go on. |
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| Steve - we'll keep you in our thoughts. It's good you could spend some time with your kids. I remember the 1st Xmas I was without my 2 daughters, and it was very, very hard. I, too, kept kicking myself for not having spent more time with them before. But you know what? The time you spend with your kids now is extra special because you're focused on quality time with them - no other distractions. I know how hard it is, but keep your spirits up, it WILL get better. |
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Location: Minden, Nebraska | Steve, Merry Christmas to you.
I think we all understand the hurt and pain, and many of us have been through similar enough experiences to empathize and know how real it is.
One thing about the meaning of Christmas is that we CAN go on. With all due respect to everyone else, from a Christian perspective the greatest gift in human history provides the greatest hope for humanity's future. 'Emmanuel' means God is with us. You're not alone and never will be. |
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Location: Pacific Northwest Inland Empire | The greatest gift to your children is showing them how "big people" deal with adversity.
And, get a physical exam. This stuff, literally, will eat your insides. If you can't be good to yourself, you won't be good for anybody else.
And, yes, that is a professional opinion. |
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Location: Huntington Beach, California | Steve,
Tomorrow is a better day. You hang in and remember time heal all wounds. Take care.
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Location: Fayetteville, NC | Well I think one of the most painful things about this incident is that here at Christmas My wife didn't at lest let my two little Boys call me and wish me Meery Christmas. It would have been at least a kind gesture. She's just not being kind at the moment. Yet I still Love her, Miss her and miss my Family.
That's what makes the tears come.
Not so much that i made a mistake, It's not being able to ask and recive her forgiveness.
Theer was only one gift i wanted this Christmas..My family back.
I don't really mind that I didn't recive any gifts. It's like i said, I'd have been satisfied just to be home. |
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Location: Simpsonville, SC | Merry Christmas, Steve! I hope that the New Year brings you what you seek.
May 2008 be a great year for ya!!
Jim |
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Location: 6 String Ranch | Stop beating yourself up. Listen to more Merle Haggard. |
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Location: GATLINBURG TENNESSEE :) | Steve,
I'll be praying for you. Just remember you only need to make it through one day at a time. Eventually you will see the light at the end of the tunnel and things WILL get better.
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| Steve - you've gotten through this Christmas, and while it may not have been ideal there's no use dwelling on it or beating yourself up about it since you can't change the past. One day at a time, bro. Things will turn around. |
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Location: Omaha, NE | I've gone through periods where I was afraid my wife would leave me...and I've gone through periods where I was afraid she wouldn't. |
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Sorry no Christmas Spirit!
